The purpose of this blog is to post the things I am grateful for to keep myself thinking positive and hopefully concentrate on all I have to be thankful for rather than what my life is "lacking". I hope that those who visit my blog will join me and support me in helping me through this trial by posting what you are grateful for that day as well. No need to comment on my situation but rather your gratitude for that day.
My Story
On December 26, 2010 just after church my hand suddenly went numb and my speech slurred...although the episode didnt' last long I was admitted to the hospital that night and was told I had a TIA (aka mini-stroke) in other words it wasnt' a stroke but it was a warning sign of one and to make things more complicated I was 20 weeks pregnant with my 5th child.
The started me on a blood thinner that was safe for both myself and the baby but my heart was in atrial flutter...and they needed to get me back to my normal rhythm to stop a stroke from happening...but to do that while pregnant is tricky so they scheduled me for a TEE (transesophegal echocardiogram) to safely shock my heart back into sinus rhythm while pregnant...although only to discover there was a blood clot lurking in my left atrium appendage. To shock me back was more life threatening at that point than to just leave it and treat me with blood thinners...needless to say blood thinners at this point will only control the clot from showering off little clots causing more TIA's or a full on stroke. They checked on the clot the end of January only to discover it was the same...needless to say it has been a challenge there is a lot of things I can't do like before. Nathan has had to take a lot of the slack with cooking dinner, house cleaning, as well as keeping up with work and his calling at church. He truly amazes me. I my side of things I am not completely incompetent but I get discouraged easily because I can't not run my household like I use to and that gives me too much time to sit around and feel sorry for myself I guess. Depression unfortunately is starting to rear an ugly head and I am trying desperately to avert disaster and stay positive and so why I have started this blog. In hopes to keep my hopes high, and faith growing
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